Thursday, July 20, 2017


Last night I had a finale.
You think I got to say this.
I left the intimate mindy world that is earth.
I left.
It was greatly quiet, here in the forest, it descended- great silence.
The mind was disconnecting from the world and as it did it I felt muscular tension dissipate in the body. It happened in sheaths. I lost the mind of the all. I'm almost completely gone, an empty hollow bamboo. It's beautiful. I feel empty. Kindly in love-
Bree- or maya. 

Tuesday, May 30, 2017


I'm ready to home myself in my heart.
It means youth kindly forever.
I'm free. 

Message to the planet..

If I could speak only to be heard I would say this

I'm going to be beautiful more than ever in a few years. It will hurt most people I come across not because I'm hurting them but because they compare and kindly I am not comparing, I'm Living my life in good ways not hurting a fly, I'm free.

I'm going to hurt them only because they good isn't. In the best possible way I'm going to say they're not good.
I'm only saying such a intimate thing here because I got to express myself only because they don't think I have the not hope to express in the best way.
Most hope but I love. Love is the answer to everyone's good intentions. It's good to love but I'm the real lover here. I'm the one here who loves. I'm the one here who really loves, they really get the benefits of my home. If I heal myself, you benefit.
I'm only healing myself because you benefit.
I'm only walking this path because I choose love.
Not many yogis And meditators choose to walk this path because it's the too hard basket, I chose to be in love not because they hurt me, I'm thinking that they think I wanted there jealousy, I wanted to be better, but that's their own mistake. I beautiful and good, I chose this path to bring big love to the world. Not for my own good times, obviously because I very much think that I'm having a terrible time here, being abused and taken advantage of by many many people.
Love isn't here. I'm the only one who knows love in this country except for Osho Amore.
I'm the only one who hopes to have lots of love around me.
I'm hoping they learn to love. I'm hoping the world  would learn to feel.
I know it's hard, butt I need it.
I'm hoping the world thinks less and feels more.
Thinking is evil.
I'm pure.
These thoughts hurt me.
I'm free of thought, just because I'm enlightened,

Narcissism isn't
Never ever call me a narcissit for I chose this path for everyone. Love to you.

Secret message

if I told you the reason you are unhappy is because you want to feel, and it will take you ten years of meditation to get it back what would you say?
Message to my dear brother, I'm so sorry. It's best I wrote this here and don't express this because he won't listen and I don't want to be abused. Most of us know that i hope to see my brother in his best way. 

Saturday, May 27, 2017

I'm hoping to find love.. from a Mystic.

it's engulfing me this divine love, bolting me from the sky and cleansing my mind, as I sit still I release deep tears of humongous grief regarding things of this world that no one realises but um enlightened folk.

I'm really upset I'm so upset that divine help is here and holding Me in my own home while I let go of this sadness which could potentially sit in my heart forever if I don't feel it and let go of it in this very moment. It's good that I'm being cared for by the divine light. I'm grateful.

I'm saying that Jesus was poor. Because he loved so greatly and yet knew that no one here held the same amount of dearness towards life as he did. Just so you know, I've reached a state of love. I'm rare. I've been given a gift by existence and that is to know ie be enlightened and to love.

I'm feeling the release so greatly I'm crying to the end of my soul. I'm writing to get in the zone to allow this depth of sadness to surface, I'm hoping I'll find love in this world. I know it's nowhere in this place but I'm feeling I'll be guided to someone very feeling soon. I'm sure I'll be just fine but this intensity of awakening and feeling is great.

Love to you. Bree

Sunday, February 12, 2017

Deep depression showing itself

I've recently made a huge step and moved into a forest to live, away from society, after an awareness that I didn't want to give my loving energy to greedy, awful people who hate, blame, and throw emotions on me. I've learnt that no one is here, so any road is good, to choose something I want.  I had a choice to either go into the city or go into the country, and I decided to put myself first! I decided to sit and feel my emotions, to get away from the mind fields and enter the natures energy no mind field.

I have felt so here, like here no where else, I've felt home here. I'm going to be blissful when I shift my emotions out which is what I'm doing and feeling my emotions surface more and more. The deep crying and ' landslide' of my depths is surfacing so I can feel the crying. I'm no longer hiding my emotions. I can sense the people around me can feel me feeling these intense intimate emotions.

The depression is caused from everyone throwing their unwanted emotions on me. Because they're not good happy or beautiful and I am. 

Here I am in the forest healing. I'm growing in the mind heart and being. I'm growing so fast the hatred of others is growing! I'm in the best way stronger. I'm getting stronger and they're growing more negative! 

I got to say I'm so happy I've decided to stay in the forest for a long time! I'm not giving to these people! I'm not going to hope for them! I'm happy living in peace bliss and happiness alone! I hope a partner arrives for me ! 

I'm going to be very benevolent here I'm going to think less be more and feel good! I not hoping to heal others you don't deserve my love. 

The winds around me come from grief. 
I'm here!
I'm here!

I'm hoping I just hope enough to hope not.